Not in my strength

Yesterday not much got accomplished around here. The kids and I got up and headed to the pound to register the dogs that I was cited for the day before. Ugh! I prayed the way there and asked the Lord to let me see the lady who I had been so fussy with the day before on my doorstep. He is faithful…she was there. This was good and bad. I knew what I needed to do.

When she came up to collect my paper work I said, “you probably don’t remember me”, to which her very flat answer was, “actually, yes I do.” Ouch! That hurts. I then proceeded to swallow hard and apologize for my attitude the day before. She really didn’t say much but asked if everything had been taken care of with my daughter. (I had been texting back and forth with Shelbie as she was at the police station dealing with her stolen bag when the pound lady showed up. Part of why I was feeling so fussy and stressed. No excuse though.)

I saw this lady again in the hallway as we waited in a crazy long line to pay. She shuffled past staring at the floor, looking, exhausted, tired, looking like she didn’t feel well and so worn out. My heart went out to her. Why didn’t I see that the day before? I was so self absorbed in my own “worries” that I failed to see this woman thru the eyes of Jesus.

The rest of the day thoughts of her flooded my mind and regret filled my heart that I failed what felt like a test to me. My day had been met with some challenges and instead of meeting those with God’s grace I met it with my own human strength. Nothing ever comes from my own strength.

I’m chalking this up to another hard lesson learned. It seems like I’ve had lots of those lessons in my life. Once again I’m so grateful for grace. I’m sorry for taking all of it from all of you! Thankfully He has a lot to give!

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”
II Corinthians 12:9