Releasing

When Shelbie first started fundraising Duane and I really wondered how she could raise enough to go to Zambia. Duane and I said from the beginning that if the Lord wanted her to go that He would bring in the money. I’m going to be really transparent here. In my mind there was this strange security that if she couldn’t raise the money then she couldn’t go. I have spent a lot of time praying that the Lord would open or close the doors concerning this trip and that He would show us His perfect will for her.

Money for her trip is due May 1st and as we turn the corner to this deadline I know that this IS what the Lord has for her because He is bringing in the funding and blessing all her hard work in such amazing ways. Our sweet church had Shelbie speak Sunday on her trip a little and blessed her with a donation. On top of that we had two other families that day generously bless her. When we counted the money all I wanted to do was cry, okay, I did cry. It was a mixture of awe of what the Lord was doing but also the fact that I really realized that this trip is a reality. It is happening.

My Mama’s heart is so torn here. I want to hold on so tightly to Shelbie and not let her go. The thought of watching her board that plane and fly thousands of miles away from our care and protection is so very hard.  While I am trying to hold on the Lord is telling my heart to release and He quietly whispers to me and reminds me that she is HIS. HIS. HIS. She is only on loan to me.

Guard the good deposit that was entrusted to you--guard it with the help of the Holy Spirit who lives in us. 2 Timothy 1:14

He has given us this awesome task of fashioning the destiny of these souls He has entrusted to us then we are to release and let them go out and be those arrows that bring light to this dark world and glory to Him. Releasing is not always easy. He loves Shelbie more than I can ever fathom. Why would I hesitate to release her to His care? I could never care for her the way He does. It is time to release that arrow. He wants to use our children in mighty ways. We just need to release.

Then He said to them, "The harvest truly is great, but the laborers are few; therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest. 
 Luke 10:2